My thoughts and dreams,...

You may see me as a happy individual with a good life, but I like you have my ups and downs. I am definitely not perfect, it's the way I was made, I'm only human. Sometimes I laugh, sometimes I cry but  I always endure and carry on through the never. I don't like to use my foundation as an excuse to be a failure and I take responsibility for my actions. If I have a problem I let you know, not to stir up trouble, but instead to solve a hindrance. Sometimes I have to take a step back for a breather because let's face it, sometimes everything is just too much to bear. I grew up as a "have not" and to this day I still carry a bit of resentment, though I try to hide it and not let others see the  envy that builds within me. Sometimes I'm screaming inside, tearing to get out, sometimes I am my own worse enemy and I keep myself captive. When I think too much is when I find myself at my darkest. Why must darkness consume me? Why can I not be that which I wish

Warning!!! Graphic Details: December 28, 2011 was the worse day of my life... my sister, Lynette Renee Yazzie-Becenti , was horrifically taken from all of us! In the New Mexico Pueblo of Jemez a man by the name of Gavin Yepa , 26 at the time, chose to take a precious life. Alcohol was involved, but alcohol cannot be the blame. She was raped with a shovel 16 inches to her diaphragm and she died of internal bleeding. This unbelievable nightmare happened at Yepa's residence in Jemez Pueblo and he is claiming that another individual by the name Rodney Adams is the guilty one. Pointing his finger at another will not make it go away. Adams was present at Yepa's residence at that time of Yepa's horrific acts and had witnessed Yepa insert a water bottle, pull it out bloody and lick the bottle before taking a drink. Rodney Adams left the house as a thief and with his hands he took her cell phone and other contents of her bag. At this time his testimony is being argued in re