They say time heals...
I can not sleep, my heart hurts too badly. I lay awake thinking endlessly into the morning hours. Sometimes I think of everything I have yet to do, or the bills to pay. Most times I replay all the mistakes Ive made throughout the day. Sometimes I replay a mistake over and over.. I feel my light weakening, dying out, fading, I am broken. I wish I were stronger. I wish I werent losing what little of me is left, I am a shell! A hollow ball of emptiness and pain. Thinking is my nemesis and procrastination has become my worst enemy. I have countless regrets yet I continue to make mistakes. I lose everything that is dear to me and it tears me apart. Life has become a foreboding memory, I am ashes from the fire, the wind sweeps me away into nothingness, I feel scattered! Time has waged a war that kills us all. I want to go home but I dont want to leave my hearts, what will they remember? What songs will remind them of me? Will they be mad at me? Will they love me? Will they know truly,