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So much has changed. My baby has gone home to heaven. I didn't know it would be this way. I'm tired of hopelessness and sorrow. They say time heals all wounds. My wounds feel heavier as time passes. A part of me has died too. I can never be who I was, not truly. I miss him so much!

I thought I had seen and felt the worst.... It turns out the worst was yet to come. We've had our ups and downs, victory's and losses, man do the losses hurt. Especially when it's those you love most! It's not like it gets easier with each day, each memory, each moment, each hour, each minute, each second,.... it all seems to be flying by without brakes. Before life seemed to be a stroll, a brisk walk even, now time drifts and sways, around corners and speeding up at straight ways, until the next foreboding crash, it eventually ends for us all. This I am sure of. But with each sunrise there seems to be a new hope, a chance, a smile, a laugh, a giggle, sweet moments get me by! Memories flood like tears, yet there always seems to be a bit of sunshine within the rain. A new day, a reason to stay... Life has been a trip! Luggage seems to slow you down. Travel lightly and make each moment count! Live, Laugh and Love! Be Kind, Courageous...

Balance: (n.) mental steadiness or emotional stability; habit of calm behavior, judgement, etc. Life is a series of ups and downs, your either in the midst of a storm, coming out of one, or one is nearing your path. It is representative of a constant series of battles based on achievements and failures. Within each of us lies a constant war, some are bigger than others, but that does not necessarily mean they are in any way more significant.  It is when we are in the midst of a storm that our principles are put to the test, how we carry ourselves speaks multitudes of our character. In our everyday complex decisions of life our daily habits tend to become our identity and we lean on consistency. The struggle is not to find an answer to every problem and catastrophe, but to find a sense of peace while in the heart of disaster.  Coping and adapting during times of hardship is a sign of a strong individual. The relation that all these aspects have in common combined is ...

"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate to do I do. "                                                                                                                                                               -Romans  7:15 Have you ever had a goal that seems to end unsuccessful, or a desire to better yourself, only to find that you willingly commit acts that result in your own failure? There are definitely a few things on my agenda that keep getting moved forward thanks to my "never give up" attitude. One goal of mine in particular is my deep des...

The following thoughts are shared from  Sunday service at Temple Baptist Church,  presented by Pastor Fred Gurule... First of all, how can we be blessed by the bible? Let me ask you a question,.... Do you or someone you know own a bible? Do you ever open it and read the word? Do you get the "information for transformation?" "The purpose of the information is transformation." -Pastor Gurule "I want the bible to be more than head knowledge, I want it to change me." -Pastor Gurule Bibles are everywhere in America last year there were 500 million bibles published in the world and thats in 18,000 different languages, meaning the bible is available for us to read it,.... If or when you search scripture, is it daily, weekly, monthly or yearly? Do you discern and gaze or do you glance?  After Jesus resurrected two disciples ran to the tomb, John looked in and he didn't go in, Peter got there and he not only looked in, but he ...

"People will forget what you said,  people will forget what you did,  but people will never forget  how you made them feel."                                                                                             -Maya Angelou "Don't forget to be awesome" -unknown "Mistakes are proof that you are trying." -unknown "One kind word can change someone's entire day." -unknown "Two things define you, your patience when you have nothing, and your attitude when you have everything." -unknown "Raise your words, not your voice. It's the rain that grows flowers, not thunder." -Rumi "New beginnings are often disguised  as painful endings." -Lao Tzu "You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, smarter than you ...

You may see me as a happy individual with a good life, but I like you have my ups and downs. I am definitely not perfect, it's the way I was made, I'm only human. Sometimes I laugh, sometimes I cry but  I always endure and carry on through the never. I don't like to use my foundation as an excuse to be a failure and I take responsibility for my actions. If I have a problem I let you know, not to stir up trouble, but instead to solve a hindrance. Sometimes I have to take a step back for a breather because let's face it, sometimes everything is just too much to bear. I grew up as a "have not" and to this day I still carry a bit of resentment, though I try to hide it and not let others see the  envy that builds within me. Sometimes I'm screaming inside, tearing to get out, sometimes I am my own worse enemy and I keep myself captive. When I think too much is when I find myself at my darkest. Why must darkness consume me? Why can I not be that which I wish ...