Into the future I go....

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So much has changed.
My baby has gone home to heaven.
I didn't know it would be this way.
I'm tired of hopelessness and sorrow.
They say time heals all wounds.
My wounds feel heavier as time passes.
A part of me has died too.
I can never be who I was, not truly.
I miss him so much!

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