My thoughts and dreams,...

He doesnt know what it means when I gave him my love. I could look into his eyes and see the stars, I wasn't afraid,  I could speak my words into his heart. Then one day it all went away, our hearts drifted astray.  I used to yearn to tell him everything,  share my goals, my dreams, my aspirations. It's faded now, I have no reason to tell.

🖤So much to say and no idea where to start. We’ll just say this is a message from the heart. Every year it seems we fall closer apart. Who are we, who are even you and I? Our identity has been ostracized, throughout the ages our bloodline has been degraded. I’ve read of revolutions, disillusions, confusions and heartache. Everything about this country's history remains a mystery to me. Why do they believed you can own people, land, and everything to be for the taking? They claim to have found us? Even though we were never lost. Our ancestors knew there would be a cost, now look at all that is truly lost.. the water is polluted, species have become extinct, our atmosphere is globally warming, there’s talk of a WWIII. Our people, our homes,  our culture and language have constantly been raided. Nonody talks about the native segregation or the attempted genocide.  Savage is what my bloodline has been labeled, a reason to take our sacred lands, all at a co...

My world shakes, Heart aches.. Feeling like my life's  An earthquake... Negativity clouds my vision, Can't seem to make a decision. Im being attacked,  Won't cut me no slack,  Everything's my fault,  It's a verbal assault, Tears stream down my face,  Nobody will ever know, My heart continues  To grow  Cold.

Sometimes love can be so cold, Our courage can only be so bold.... My heart hurts, the pain’s too much to hold... It’s often overbearing, my hearts heavy, I try to remain steady, I remember clearly that day, It had to unfold... So much had happened, So much untold... The guy who did it was evil, his soul was sold... She was taken from I without a goodbye, She’ll never get old... I’ll continue but still I’ll cry, Never consoled... We used to be under the same stars, The sun and the moon were the lights of our world.. We were together, we had one another... My sister in heaven was taken away. #MMIW #NoMoreMissingSisters

One could pretend to care,... intent is there,... but where is the compassion,.. where has that tenderness gone? What is the meaning behind it all? If it is not heartfelt and genuine is it even worth the effort? How must one continue on in despair,.. to lose a love and go on knowing,... or to walk blindly, but not just any kind of blindness, intent blindness, a knowing blindness where eyes are tightly sealed. Is pretending as bad as dishonesty or omission.....? What has happened to want to see through the blindness, yet fear takes hold,. Could I ever be so bold? One day there will be no morrow to make up for the past,... one day there will only be storms and sorrow. In my foreboding mind I only see darkness... A deceiver of honesty, a liar of qualities, a charmer of good, a pretender of motions, an omitter of the truth,... What shall one continue to present? What shall one choose to perceive? Fake truths or true lies,... only time will tell,... As we all ...

I've come to a fork in the road, my heart is corrupted. I'm losing myself once again,  i f ever my life has been challenging it has been these past few years... I always feel myself slipping away and it's then that I start feeling down. I know people often feel uncomfortable when confronted with anything unpleasant, I mean it's human nature. So many thoughts go through my mind, many of them unpleasant, it is because of this reason I have not published much of my writing in these past years. This year that's changing, I will say what I mean and with intent. I figure nobody really reads much anymore,  why bother censoring my unread words. Over the years I have written many words, but have not shared many thoughts. Writing has always been my strongest form of expression, like running I feel it just comes naturally. There's so many things happening, I have so many goals, I started running in August. I'm not going to stop anytime soon...and so with my writin...

To love and be loved... I've been falling for some time now.. I knew from the start, like a shadow to the light, we belong together forevermore.. A love like ours can only be found in once opon a times, without reason or rhyme... I promise to love you for all of my time🖤 I simply want to be with you, to live, to laugh, to grow,  Through anything and everything I want you and only you, there by my side! I want to love you deeply to learn you inside out your fears your dreams your wildest desires.. I want to love you with intent, to prosper, to build and grow a castle of our own together. I want you there for the laughter, I want you there for the tears, I want you there for all the years, to enjoy the most beautiful days and weather the darkest of storms...  I never want to be without you 🖤 That is the way I want to love you into eternity, with you always by my side.